MOVING ON PART 2!

"People I've loved , I have no regrets

Some I remember, some I forget

Some of them living, some of them dead"

... 

(by: d.g)

I have been thinking a lot about the 'moving on' text I wrote; somehow it just seems unfinished.. in fact, I think all of my texts are incomplete..  I guess it's because I still have a lot to say about everything and none of them will ever be complete as long as I live..

But the one 'bothering'  me the most is the 'moving on' one.. I never came to a conclusion.

There is so much I can say about moving on...

For starts... we all are moving on from something, once we moved on a first time, we will continue to move on the rest of our lives; 

I really don't believe we leave it ALL behind,or solve our problems completely , or understand particular situations that in some way made us feel a need to move on.  THAT SAID: I am still moving on! So it's impossible for me to , in some way, feel that the 'moving on' text is completely done! I'M NOT DONE with anything. No one is! There's always something, we're never happy or satisfied . 

When in the process of moving on, we (sometimes) try very hard to forget something or someone, and sometimes we do, some other times we don't. 

I'm beginning to realize that we never do forget them, what happens is that our feelings change, they fade-die!OR they remain the same,they grow, or in some cases they simply aren't there- they kill a part of us .

When we're moving on, we're looking for something to replace a void caused by something|someone, a void  I'm too familiarized with and I don't like it. It never dies,that void, but not everything is bad news,... you will feel news thing, they don't replace the void but they teach you something, because there're just something that can't be undone.

I'm  desperately  trying to move one from a lot of things, in a way I'm succeeding but.. I just wish time could go faster sometimes. I'm glad I learn all of the things time and life have been teaching me, but there are days where things aren't so clear and easy.

There are days I just feel like....shit! Days  I feel it's not worth moving on, days I feel I will never find what I want, and who I need. No matter what anyones says, we all need someone to love and to make us feel loved, and when we're having a crappy day we start to think about our past relationships, and many of them are the reason we're trying to move on!, and then we're stuck in that parallel universe I talked about in my previous text.

Moving on can be hard! I wish I had the solution for ' how to survive a crappy day'.. I guess we all have one, even if it is eating ice-cream for dinner, going to bed early,not getting out of bed, taking a long shower, walking alone, listening to very very loud music,shouting, dancing.. i don't know! whatever helps each and every single one of us.

But one thing is certain, even if you don't want to move on, you're somehow already doing it -  because you thought about it and you KNOW  it's he best thing to do even if you think you're too weak for it; your mind will find it's way to keep you from hurting yourself even if it means a part of you must die!

Thinking positively may help too! Think about the future you have ahead of you..

E, sim!!! Podia ter dado uma hipotese ao X,  e ao Y, mas se o fizesse nao me estava a dar hipostese a miim!